will I ever feel okay?

considering I've never really had a relationship. or anything I'm proud to call a relatioship...
I come into this expecting certain things.

to be treated like I'm not just a friend.
to be treated like I'm worth time. because that's been a huge struggle for me.
no one has ever treated me like I'm actually worth it. you are the closest to making me feel worth even anything... but I still slip into this insecurity and I have a good right to.
to be shown affection. I'm scared to always make the moves. if I always have to initiate everything, it makes me feel like I'm the only one trying.
that may not be the case, but that's how I feel.

I want to treat a girl with respect.
I don't ever want you to feel uncomfortable or awkward.
you don't need to be shy with me, because I seriously don't
judge you, and there's not a thing I don't like about you.

I wish you'd see things through my eyes.
cause after losing people I thought I cared about
I can't imagine losing someone I actually do care about.
and actually love.

sex isn't love.
I may be a virgin.. but that was by choice.
it doesn't make you any less of a person for being one.
I don't need to fuck everyone I see.

I'm not trying to prove anything to anyone.
my intentions are real.
I couldn't feel this way about just anyone.

I have never loved anyone else, that's how sure I am with my feelings.
it scares me sometimes
but I know that in order to ever be loved back
I need to put myself out there.
and I have. and will do whatever it takes,
to make this work.
my stupid little insecurities may try and slow me down
but I can get over them.

I've never been happier.
with anyone.
than you.

and I'm not afraid of anything really
except for anything to fall apart

I hate how you think you have flaws.
because your insecurities are adorable.
because there's actually nothing wrong with you.
you're so cute.
I love you