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I have fear of icsolation. I hate being alone, even though part of me doesnt. when people switch plans, or ditch me... I hate that the most. obviously I dont tel people because I dont want them to know. I plan an event knowing in my mind that its never going to happen now just so I can save my self to the trouble of being hurt or upset. sometimes I feel like absolutely no one is there for me. all my friends seem to tell others, or are never around to talk. I just wanna realease all these things that tie me down