I'm glad there's finally going to be some sort of a change.
I'm getting help, making myself who I want to be, letting people who have brought me down go, and quit smoking.
I've realized how these things really do affect your life, and even though you may feel constantly sad about them for a while, it'll be worth it in the end.
I don't expect people to sympathize for me...
infact it's more of the opposite,
I regret ever telling untrustworthy people things that I thought they wouldn't tell.
I didn't want anyone to know.
I'm glad I deactivated my facebook.
a few people who I have surrounded myself with in the past
are complete cowards. they feel that facebook is where they can act out
about their pathetic feelings, because they can't actually say them to my face.
I can focus more on my school work, and fixing what has been broken in my life.
I still feel terrible about myself, my appearance... my body...
but that will probably never change until I meet someone who doesn't make me feel
more self contious about them.
i'll keep doing what I'm doing.
removing my body hair, restyling my hair, wearing what ever I like, wearing all the makeup I want, and not being afraid of being mocked for my emotions.

fuck haters.

if you have to go around trying to convince people to hate me, better check yourself.
cause that's called jealousy my friend.

ps.... I'm not 'slow' or 'dumb.'

I either don't find it important enough to pay attention to,
don't give a fuck, and just don't care.
or I'm permafried but who really gives a shit.