I wouldn't call what I'm doing, hypocrisy as far as logic is concerned.
i won't just be nice to someone who's being a complete asshole.
I will defend myself, not try to make it worse.
if you hate me so much, then stop.
if you 'loved' me, you'd feel like I feel.
maybe you do.
your words, they can hurt.
sometimes I find your insults funny,
but it makes me feel so torn up inside to know that we aren't the way we used to be.
I feel there is still hope for us.
I'm working on my problems,
and that means you should work on yours.
problems aren't the end of the world, we all have them. I haven't been handling mine as maturely as I could have, but it's never too late to change that. and I am.

I'm tired of hearing about the immature backtalk.
I don't do that.
people say what they want, they don't always phase me.

if people have only seen us fighting, yeah they might think we shouldn't be together.
but they don't know about how we felt before,
why I try so hard to make things right
and beat myself up when they go wrong.
I want people to see how we felt for each other.
how you could make me smile forever after one simple kiss goodbye,
how I still get these butterflies..
I could just sit around and be with you forever
I still have all the notes I never gave you,
the songs I've never sung you.
and sometimes i see things that we used to talk about, and you're the only one I want to talk about them with.
it breaks my heart to see you like this,
but here I am, owning up to the problems I've had.
i get over a lot of things easily, but not everything.

I'd rather have you as a friend than nothing at all.
but you really do mean so much to me.