I decided starting now, till the end on February , I will post one thing that no one or few people know about me.



I'm a mess.
honestly, I'm glad that only a couple people will ever see this. ever since grade 7, I have had extreme self image problem. yeah I'll admit it. things around me would make me feel so much worse and it got to the point where I purposely starved myself to try and lose the baby fat on my stomach. I will be the first to tell you, I don't have a hard life. I feel that my mental being is the reason for a lot of my terrible reactions to things. my dad is a sociopath or how ever thats spelled, and it has been one of my biggest fears to end up like him. my mom is actually an amazing mom. sure shes strict, and shit happened in the past but she's honestly the reason I didnt just jump off the deep end. she doesnt know how some of the things she says, hurt - I really don't know what's wrong with me. actuallly I might, but I don't ever want to know the truth about that. I was raised differently than most kids. I was homeschooled till grade 7 because my mom used to be a teacher and loved teaching but didnt want to work in the school system. I'm so happy she did. although I was EXrEMELY naive and innocent when I entered school, I wouldnt change it. I remember when everyone made fun of me for asking what a blow job was. haha, or when I was the only kid in class who didnt know what cleavage was.. hahahahha I knew like nothing that all'these kids' talk about.