echo

we were once two homies of the same kind
used to holler at a kitty wit the same line
you was once so full of life,
now you're all alone, surrounded by knives
your furs been pimpin for years
but it's only brought you fears
wasn't accustomed to the white picket life
let yo momma know, she's raised a player that ain't no lie
sippin back the gin,
drinking enough to make your head spin
recheckin your life, would anyone care?
we got mad love for you homie,
we be forever there.

no nigga,
your time ain't here
you gotta stay in dis world
gotta stay on top
shockin bitches till you die
forever you gonna stay high

got mad for ya homie,
we ain't even mad
don't go echo
don't leave your homies ridin solo

when the music stops,
and people start to leave this wild place
all that they thought was once love falls to pieces
these pretty girls, dressed to kill
won't leave with a smile
because what everyone wants is to be wanted
whether it's for a second, minute, or forever.
everyone wants to mean something to someone.
it's crazy, oh yes it's true
how far I've fallen for you
I don't see like they do anymore
I've openned up my eyes
to trip like they don't
to feel like they won't
to smile like they don't
to love like they won't
I was happy I fell for you
my only wish is that you'd love me too.

looking up to the sky
seeing the clouds
taking over me
their cold embrace
breathing right back in my face

who wouldve know
we'd come to this
who wouldve guessed
it could come out to this

so I'll remain in my dreams
rememmbering all the smiles of yesterday
and I'll go on
even if I walk for miles
I'll be there
waiting
watching the skies
hoping to catch
the next plane ticket out of this town

everything here
reminds me of you
the way that I feel
it haunts me too
but I'll remain in my dreams

cause that's the only place 
I can be with you.

I was just being friendly..

this is a dream I had. but it's weird how sometimes my worst fears are the theme.

I don't really remember where we were, at a party I think.
I like to be friendly to people as say hello. so I was just being friendly and walking around
this party. everyone was so rude, no one would talk to me.
I hate rejection, of any form - especially this kinda.
I remember I walked into a room with a group of people that looked similar to a couple of ransoms from school, only their faces weren't quite the same.
and I tried to talk to them,
"get the fuck outta here. no one wants your ratty ass here."
said one of the girls.
"you look so fucking stupid, who invited you to this party?.."
said another.
"you're sketchy as fuck, and your hair looks fucking retarded"
someone else said.
I felt my hair, it felt a big messier than usual.
"well I don't fucking like it, and who are you to call me sketchy? have you seen yourself?"
I said.
unfortunately, one person can't verbally fight like ten.
"no one likes you, you have no friends so why are you still here?"
someone said.
they all laughed at me.
any defense I had, they just threw it back in my face.
you see, that's another strange
fear of mine. being isolated and helpless in front of people.
being the hated one, for no reason
or something as stupid as the way I look.

it's never easy

life is hard.
everything can be hard.
it's easy to just give up,
and sometimes giving up is the only option.
but it's impossible to live life challenge free.
there's always something that you may not be good at
and there's always something you are good at.
even when the bad seems to outweight the good,
just remember that things do get better
and staying strong in tough times,
will make you stronger in general.
so to give up on things that aren't impossible is weak.

no one ever said life was fair.
we just have to deal with it.